Beauty In Simplicity

Sunday, February 15, 2009

i really made a serious fool of myself last friday. i'm so thankful for everybody who were there for me. especially fel koh! thanx babe for helping to clean up the mess and everything. and tian and kok for sending me home 5am in the morning and making sure that i was safely on my bed before leaving. sorry if i ruin everybody's mood that night. also to my mum. was quite surprised she did not scold me for getting drunk. instead she just sat by my bed the whole time and help to clean up the mess at home.i swear that it will be my first and last time getting drunk.

it was my first time getting drunk. in the past, i just felt very sleepy and the alcohol effect usually just go away after some time. but this time it was very bad. they said that i puked all over the room and talked alott of rubbish that night.

i admit i did went abitt overboard last night. i shld have controlled the amount of alcohol i drank. must have really drank alott that night.i dunno what have gotten into me but i guess its really the whole series of events that happen at home, in school and with regards to friends too. i broke down for the first time. koh said i blurted alott of things out that night. some people said that you usually speak the truth when you're drunk. so i guess its true when i really said i miss ryan. yes i really still miss him alott. close to two years alr but i still can't get him off my mind. koh said she will update me again what exactly i said that night. i sure hope i did not say anything embarrassing too.

and the feeling of hang over seriously SUCKS. you wake up with a splitting headache, rashes on your body, a burning throat, puke on your shirt, hair and even bed. and you find yourself waking your mum up so that you can just find somebody to cry and scream to. anyway continued puking the whole day yesterday so mum brought me to the doctor. was down with a fever and gastric flu. so practically vday was spent at home lying on my bed the whole day and making frequent trips to the toilet. really really horrible. felt kinda bad couldn't have dinner with yy. but glad i'm feeling better today. mum and the bros went to visit grandpa at the hospital. i had to stay at home to rest.

all in all, no more alcohol for me ever. please stop me whenever you see me drinking k. dun wanna make a fool of myself ever again.