Beauty In Simplicity

Friday, February 27, 2009

MAMBORING

met up with 1504 for our usual mambo gathering. one word to describe that night: mediocre. it was super packed, the place reeked of alcohol (which sort of turns me off since that drunk incident), the music was broing and i felt sleepy. we actually started queuing at 8pm just so that we could get into phuture. waited about an hour before we could get in. met shi lai and chermaine there too!! it was really nice catching up with shi lai and he was so nice to treat me to a drink when i told him that my friends banned me from drinking that night. but i know they meant well la. anyway i won't wanna spoil their night too by getting all wasted and what not.

on the other hand, i thought the kbox session in the afternoon was better and more fun. met up with koh and ngiam. we sang for 5 hours. and ngiam brought her friend over too. i'm so loving him cuz he loves singing jay chou songs. so we ended up singing quite a no of jay chou songs ((: and we were all mesmerised by his version of 新不了情 and 恋上(另)一个人. it was really really good!! i dun mind him joining us the next time we go kbox again lol.

Monday, February 23, 2009

unending love, amazing grace

i'm so glad i went for church service at ncc yesterday. it has been a long time since i actually found peace and calmness within me. all along, we have been worried about endless problems and also holding high expectations of ourselves. and there is also the recession problem which had added even more stress to everybody. everyday i will complain to myself how tired and unhappy i am wrt to alott of stuff. my family's problem, school, brothers, friends, him, grad trip, finding a job.... but actually, i just have to put my trust in God and believe he will make everything right for me. pastor prince mentioned this from the bible: the race is not to the swift, or the battle to the strong. nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant; but time and chance happen to them all. everything that will happen is all under God's timing and God's happening. theres no need to put oneself under immense pressure and cry and sulk the whole day. pray for 'qara' (hebrew word for chance) and i know that God will put me in the 'right' place at the 'right' time. believe in him and he will guide me to everlasting happiness and peace.

Give all your worries to him, because he cares for you
Peter 5:7

Sunday, February 15, 2009

i really made a serious fool of myself last friday. i'm so thankful for everybody who were there for me. especially fel koh! thanx babe for helping to clean up the mess and everything. and tian and kok for sending me home 5am in the morning and making sure that i was safely on my bed before leaving. sorry if i ruin everybody's mood that night. also to my mum. was quite surprised she did not scold me for getting drunk. instead she just sat by my bed the whole time and help to clean up the mess at home.i swear that it will be my first and last time getting drunk.

it was my first time getting drunk. in the past, i just felt very sleepy and the alcohol effect usually just go away after some time. but this time it was very bad. they said that i puked all over the room and talked alott of rubbish that night.

i admit i did went abitt overboard last night. i shld have controlled the amount of alcohol i drank. must have really drank alott that night.i dunno what have gotten into me but i guess its really the whole series of events that happen at home, in school and with regards to friends too. i broke down for the first time. koh said i blurted alott of things out that night. some people said that you usually speak the truth when you're drunk. so i guess its true when i really said i miss ryan. yes i really still miss him alott. close to two years alr but i still can't get him off my mind. koh said she will update me again what exactly i said that night. i sure hope i did not say anything embarrassing too.

and the feeling of hang over seriously SUCKS. you wake up with a splitting headache, rashes on your body, a burning throat, puke on your shirt, hair and even bed. and you find yourself waking your mum up so that you can just find somebody to cry and scream to. anyway continued puking the whole day yesterday so mum brought me to the doctor. was down with a fever and gastric flu. so practically vday was spent at home lying on my bed the whole day and making frequent trips to the toilet. really really horrible. felt kinda bad couldn't have dinner with yy. but glad i'm feeling better today. mum and the bros went to visit grandpa at the hospital. i had to stay at home to rest.

all in all, no more alcohol for me ever. please stop me whenever you see me drinking k. dun wanna make a fool of myself ever again.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

the whole house is going down down down

dad we really need you here with us now...
hurry come back home

Sunday, February 8, 2009

The Show - Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why
Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know wh

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

i just wish that we can all take some time to meet up once in a while
catch up on stuff just like the old days
i know we're all busy and that we all have our own commitments..
but whats taking a little time off and making the effort to meet up

i've done whatever i can trying to organize outings and such
but nobody seems to be looking forward towards it or anything
i dun want to lose this friendship of ours
but i'm so afraid that it will really happen

我真的累了

this is to you, 1504 peeps (which i doubt anybody of you ever reads my blog)

Monday, February 2, 2009

CNY @ SQ's house

hockey babes met up at siqian's house yesterday for our first ever new year party together. it started off with chee and i getting off at the wrong bus stop. the instruction was to alight at the fourth bus stop. but we were too engrossed in talking that we forgot to count. so we only started counting right after we realized that we forgotten about it. and we ended up at the 7th bus stop which was like 10 miles away from qian's house. when we got there, aud bel and ari were there alr. aud lost her way too. she almost drove to malaysia la. haha had dinner, played mahjong, watched tv and took alott of photos. it was really nice hanging out with the hockey babes. and i'm really really going to miss SQ so much when shes in shanghai!!

Chingay parade 2009

it was my first time watching the chingay parade last saturday. and i was glad it was with hockey babe siqan. not a very big fan of chingay, but i had to support meichee!! her hall was taking part in it and she was one of the dancers. wouldn't wanna miss that. met qian at city hall before heading our way to the chingay parade. there were like four different stages, so we just stayed at one, which was along connaught drive. the place was super crowded. qian and i were squeezed like sardines. yea the floats were colourful and the dancers were ethusisatic, but there was a point when qian and i were actually stoning. we were only waiting for chee's hall to appear. SO after a looong wait of 2 hours, chee's hall finally appeared! we started looking for chee. lo and behold, we saw her walking along the road. being her usual self, qian started shouting her name so loudly that the people around us immediately formed a radius around us. meichee got super high when she saw us too and she was like jumping and shouting. i really think the people around us thought we were crazy or sth. but still, we were glad we manage to see chee!

chee's hall (eusof hall) float

and the night ended with fireworks

our first time at chingay

it was my first, and i think it will be my last. haha. just watch it on tv can already ((:

CNY @ my house

TGL chinese new year party at my house last friday. grandma came over to cook dinner for us. appreciate it alott. glad the guys love the food. we had yu sheng too!! then it was a few rounds of ban luck. my dad was the dealer for the first few rounds. in the beginning, eugene was on a winning streak. won quite alott until he became the dealer. lol. so it was chunboon who ended up the biggest winner. and he only bet 50cents in every round la. i think i lost $10. THEN we decided to play mahjong instead. the funniest mahjong session i ever had in years. it was also the slowest game ever. we have like eugene and zhilei taking years to decide which tile to throw (and i really mean years! they were so long la) there was also chunboon doing all the stupid stuff. he actually mistook the bird (yi shuo) as a flower. it was really hilarious when he put the tile on the table together with the other flower tiles.